Walls, they see so much

Confined inside these four walls
Nothing to do but stare
Stare at these walls which see and hear so much
Nothing to do but wander off
Wander off in my mind to a place where I'm happy
Nothing to do but look at these pages
One by one as a story unravels itself
Of the adventures I can't have

I was looking through old poems I'd written and found this one. I don't remember when exactly I wrote this but it makes so much sense in the current situation.

It's been close to six months since the lock down was imposed and that poem pretty much sums up what I've been doing all this while.

Reading and binge watching to burn away the time between when I wake up and when I go to sleep everyday.

I'm sure I'm not the only one though. A lot of you out there would be facing the same issues or doing the same thing.

It's a rut that I can't seem to get out of. I see everyone else on social media being productive and going about their day as if nothing is bothering them and it definitely takes a toll on me.

We all definitely know the cliche "the reel world is different from the real world" but it doesn't make us feel better does it?

I have my friends constantly tell me I'm not the only one, that the whole world is feeling this way and that I should just calm down.

I know all of this myself, we all do.

But here's what I've realized, everyone has their own way of dealing with things and realizing that something they've been stressing over can be solved very easily and that the solution was right in front of them the entire time.

So I think it's okay to feel lost, stuck, stagnant and/or helpless. Give yourself time to get out of it at your own pace. You are not your friend or someone you see online. You're you and you are unique and your issues are yours.

You're going to have a Eureka moment but you just need to give yourself the time to get there.

T Kinjala