A New Year's Eve

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The Earth twirls around yet again
but this time all its humans cheer.

The world is going to go on, business as usual five minutes after the clock strikes twelve. While most of the world might already be asleep, some just then going to and some night owls still up, I want you to think of every way that you've made yourself better in 2020.



This year, we all fell and rose, knowingly or unknowingly we did about a million little things we never would've even imagined doing a year back and we probably still don't realize what half of those things were. With the pressure to be productive and learn something new during quarantine we all seem to think there is some version of us out there, a version that is our best in every possible way. That we must put everything else one hold till we reach that point, find and become that version. In the process, we forget the version that's existing now. We will only ever have the current moment and our current version. Every year we try to become our so called "best" self and punish ourselves when we feel we haven't achieved it. Somewhere along the way this year, we have definitely become our better self. But, we can never be our best self, there is no set limit. We are constantly learning and unlearning, the world keeps moving and so do we, like little dolls in a doll house. You will not be the same person you were a fortnight ago let alone a year. Let us constantly remember to accept our changing selves and make a home for us within ourselves.


Every time I feel overwhelmed, I remind myself that I live on a planet with 7.8 billion other human beings. It reminds me how tiny I am and how the whole world isn't watching me. I don't have to be the best I have ever been, I just need to be better than before. I've learnt to enjoy being in my own company this year, not needing to constantly be in the presence of another person or in conversation with another person. Being alone by myself seems to give me this kind of peace and tranquility that nothing else can. Only now do I realize how important this is and how much it can make life better.


A couple of days back, I was at a friend's place and she asked me when I was going to post next as it had been a while. I had gotten so caught up with classes and other things I'd kept aside doing things that I enjoy and things that help me relax. So this wasn't planned and pre written, its just a spontaneous on the spot post I'm writing putting my thoughts out after an early morning walk.

Lastly, not to be a buzz kill but as we go into the new year, let us be responsible and remember that the world won't just go back to normal when the date changes to 1/01/2021. We are still in the middle of a pandemic. Stay safe, keep others around you safe. Who would've thought 2020 would come along and teach us how to be hygienic, something we all thought we knew like the back of our hands. Ironic how we had to watch videos to learn how to wash our hands the right way. Let's wear our masks, continue to maintain social distance and enjoy life as it unfurls, one day at a time.

- T. Kinjala

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