Little pockets of Happiness

 I don't know how to begin this.

I can't find any appropriate way to start this blog because it feels like the world is right were we were a year ago. The last few weeks have been rocky and I was feeling some type of way. I wasn't unmotivated, I didn't feel a lack of energy, it wasn't your typical burn out either but I just couldn't get myself to do the things I really wanted to do. I decided to just let myself feel however and whatever it was because what else could I possible do? Everyone around me seemed to be feeling the same way too and it seemed weird. And then, a friend sent me this article (I'll attach the link at the end don't worry ;) ) and it all made sense because I finally had a word, a word to express how I was feeling. Apparently it's called "languishing".

Well, that aside, we're back to staying at home and online classes and I miss the outside world of course but then I remembered about this list I'd made on my notes app filled with little things I noticed on a daily basis that made me feel happy and wholesome. These are things that made me realize the important little things and moments in life. So I thought why not put them out here, it might make some of you all smile. I'm not going to edit the list or alter it. These are notes that I made as and when the moment happened or the thought passed through my mind, I scrambled for my phone and noted them down. It's going to be a plain ctrl C and ctrl V from my notes app as I want to keep this more raw and unedited, it just feels like everyone could use a little bit of that.

A newly married couple sitting together in a parked auto and eating out of the same plate.
A mom on the bus next to me talking to her little son about the things she sees on the way.
An old woman with a big bindi and draped in a green cotton sari talking on her phone in the bus stop and laughing her heart out.
Saw two girls in their schools uniforms and missed waking up, wearing my uniform and going to school.
Numerous fights between bus passengers, drivers and conductors weirdly makes me smile because of the feeling of normalcy it emanates.
Seeing everyone wearings masks everyday made me realize how fast we can adapt and change to things and how different the world is to around a year back. Makes me believe that we can get over anything.
Thinking about how bus drivers do the same route so many times everyday.
Watering the plants at home and watching them grow everyday.

Food, food, and more delicious food. YUM. Finally getting my hands on some books I've wanted forever and restarting my reading habit. Took me back to my middle school self, obsessing over these characters from my favorite series and gasping and crying and laughing along with them. Lying down on the terrace at night, looking up at the sky and stars while listening to music. Thinking about how big the universe is and how unique each of our moments, memories and relationships are and how it makes each of us unique and different and no two people are identical.

Saw a plane fly across above and missed the feeling of being at a train station

or the airport and imagined how each person on that plane would be having different worries, thoughts and lives.

These are some moments that made me feel like I was wrapped in a blanket of happiness and warmth. Made me feel like every cell in my body had a face of its own and was smiling ear to ear.

Here's the article I was talking about - https://www-nytimes-com.cdn.ampproject.org/c/s/www.nytimes.com/2021/04/19/well/mind/covid-mental-health-languishing.amp.html

I hope this one made you smile at least a little.

Signing off,

Kinjala