Iridescent Thoughts

Moving away from home is probably one of the most bittersweet experiences life has to offer. You are aware that being in your home city, studying from home instead of hostel or PG is more comfortable, yet you choose to leave. You choose to leave because you know there is a better life waiting for you at the other end. You know you can make yourself, your friends and family proud. You are willing to sacrifice anything for that dream, for that life. But there are these few days, these few moments, where you question all of that. Is it worth it?  It's when you realize the youngest child of the house has moved away and the middle child has been married off. Both the girls of the house have left. It's when you realize most of your friends are now in different parts of the world and you do not know when you will meet them again. It's when you try or learn something new and wish your people were there with you. It's when you have an exam the next day but you don't ...

 To dwell around in the forest  Feet touching the damp ground  Dew, branches, bark and leaves  No one around to watch  Except the little birds and animals  The faint sound of a faraway stream   The skittering of other tiny ground dwellers  The crunch of branches, bark and leaves  The crickets' chirp and cicadas         buzz and click Almost like petrichore  Humidity all around  The smell of damp branches, bark and leaves  titilating the soul  Forest berries Red, black and blue  Sweet and tart jointly  Viscous golden juice drips  A flicker of light Leading down a path  Through branches, bark and leaves  A flicker now a brilliant ring Dancing about in a clearing   Body and mind as one  A little fairy with diaphonous wings  A little something about our five beautiful senses this time. :)  - T. Kinjala  Picture credits : pinterest 

  I don't know how to begin this. I can't find any appropriate way to start this blog because it feels like the world is right were we were a year ago. The last few weeks have been rocky and I was feeling some type of way. I wasn't unmotivated, I didn't feel a lack of energy, it wasn't your typical burn out either but I just couldn't get myself to do the things I really wanted to do. I decided to just let myself feel however and whatever it was because what else could I possible do? Everyone around me seemed to be feeling the same way too and it seemed weird. And then, a friend sent me this article (I'll attach the link at the end don't worry ;) ) and it all made sense because I finally had a word, a word to express how I was feeling. Apparently it's called "languishing". Well, that aside, we're back to staying at home and online classes and I miss the outside world of course but then I remembered about this list I'd made on my note...

The Earth twirls around yet again but this time all its humans cheer. The world is going to go on, business as usual five minutes after the clock strikes twelve. While most of the world might already be asleep, some just then going to and some night owls still up, I want you to think of every way that you've made yourself better in 2020. This year, we all fell and rose, knowingly or unknowingly we did about a million little things we never would've even imagined doing a year back and we probably still don't realize what half of those things were. With the pressure to b e productive and learn something new during quarantine we all seem to think there is some version of us out there, a version that is our best in every possible way. That we must put everything else one hold till we reach that point, find and become that version. In the process, we forget the version that's existing now. We will only ever have the current moment and our current version. Every year we ...

 Hey you all, I decided to post something different from the usual this time. These are four fictional pieces I've written and all four poems surround the same theme - of feeling frustrated, wanting out and trying to get back to yourself. Some are old pieces and ideas to which I weaved in some new lines.  The comments and messages I received on the previous blog 'Self Care, An alien concept' were overwhelming so I also want to thank everyone who reads my blogs, shares them and leave heart warming comments. I hope you like this one too.     Objects in the mirror  They say objects in the mirror appear closer than they are                But I'm standing here In front of a mirror And what I see does not feel closer to me They say objects in the mirror appear closer than they are But I feel a million miles away from myself So far away that I no longer think that What I see is me They sa...

 Dear you, yes you, if you are someone who doesn't value yourself, put everything aside and read this. We live in a world where Self Care is a very alien concept. Right now I know you're probably thinking, "what is she saying? I know what self care is". So no, I don't mean the self care you see on social media. I don't mean the one day you take out of your week or the daily routine you've made for yourself to do a face mask, get your hair and nails done and/or go shopping, nothing of that sort. I don't mean the superficial things we do to make ourselves look and feel better temporarily. We live in a world where doing all that seems like what self care is. We're sitting here in this roller coaster called life and most of the time we're living for the temporary. This world, it eats us up. We deal with so many problems and issues and most of the time, we ignore them, run away from them or deny them because we don't know what to do ...